I knew I was living in a mindful state when I began to choose again and again to be totally honest with myself. It takes both courage and kindness for me to look at myself without concealment... This often means looking at what I am feeling right now and what is going on with me right now. I have to work to get past my shadow self that wants to stay hidden and in denial so I can be protected from the pain of every day life from being me. Conditioning drives me to make others better, worse, bigger or smaller than me. It takes courage for me to see all of the not so subtle ways I fool myself so I can experience the pure magic and freedom that comes from living mindfully. This is it. Right now in this moment.